|—||Thich Nhat Hanh (via journeyingfrog)|
On my 39th birthday back in September, on a girls-only weekend out of town, I fell off the wagon after having been sober for several weeks. Since then, well…let’s just say I made up for some lost time. I’ve tossed a lot of poison down the hatch and have nothing to show for it except 5 pounds of extra weight and killer hangovers. Ridiculous, right?
To say I’m disgusted with myself is an understatement. Alcoholism runs in my family, my own father lost his battle with it, and I refuse to succumb. BOOZE WILL NOT WIN. It will NOT drown me the way it has so many others.
Today is day 1 of my recovery. *sigh*
For all of you who’ve felt even for a second that it’s ever too late:
1. Charles Bukowski had his first book published when he was 49
2. Leonard Cohen was 33 when his first album was released
3. Marina Abramovic’s career as an independent artist wasn’t solidified until she was 42
4. Julia Child’s career started when she was 36
5. Van Gogh started drawing when he was 27
6. Monet painted Sunrise when he was 33, but wasn’t creating his best work until his early 40s
7. Kazuo Ohno started dancing at 27
8. William S. Burroughs had his first novel published when he was 39
if that is what they want
and is always available
to those with a passion for the truth.
In the welter of opinions,
she is content with not-knowing.
She makes distinctions
but doesn’t take them seriously.
She sees the world constantly breaking
apart, and stays centered in the whole.
She sees the world endlessly changing
and never wants it to be
different from what it is.
|—||Chuang-tzu, adapted by Stephen Mitchell|
I have been alcohol-free for 33 days now! Wow.
Tomorrow I will be attending a banquet and more than likely surrounded by people drinking and in various states of intoxication. I’m not worried. I got this. :)